My life went from being a complete mess to having some sort of direction in just a week and a half. Granted, I am still upset about my new single-status, and I have a long way to go to repair things with my friends, but for the most part, I am happy–for the first time in a looong time.
It seems like I really will get this job. I have a meeting with the head teacher on Friday, and the assistant to the director said that they want to “finish up the process” (aka offer me a job? hopefully?). I don’t want to be disappointed, but they are seriously leading me to believe that I will no longer be jobless. And that is a very very good thing.
I have finally figured out that this is what I want to do with my life. Being a teacher seems so comfortable and natural for me. When I was in the classroom yesterday I felt like I was in my element, where time flew by, and things just felt right. That’s what this is…my life feels like it is the way it should be right now. I am getting the opportunity to really focus on me and what I want to get out of life. Last night, I even spent a lot of time looking at graduate programs online and figured out that I could apply for admission in the spring and still be able to work. And the best part? As long as I live at home (not ideal, but necessary), I could get my master’s without going into any additional debt. And that would be fabulous. The working all day and school at night thing will probably make me exhausted/on the brink of insanity, but it is really the most practical thing for me, and it just feels right. Which, after years of being clueless of where I wanted my life to go, is a great feeling. Of course, I could change my mind by next week, but for now, there is where I am at.
I also decided that I need some hobbies. Or at least something to keep me sane while I am living at home. I am toying with the idea of yoga, making my own jewelry, and knitting. Any other suggestions?
