I Did It!

So you know that job I was waiting to hear back from? WELL I GOT IT! I AM OFFICIALLY EMPLOYED! After 6 months of searching, I finally have a job and could not be happier (unless they gave me benefits, but I will take what I can get). I will be working in a kindergarten classroom full time in an elementary school very close to my apartment and I will continue to babysit after school, so I should be able to save a decent amount of money so that I can move out next year!

I start Monday! Unfortunately I am sick with nasty cold, so I have to spend my last couple of days of freedom housebound, but still…I totally have a job! YES YES YES!

Rant

If an employer tells a job applicant that she will let the applicant know if they got the job that day or the next day, then that’s what she should do!

It is now two days later and I still have no response! I know this means that I probably didn’t get the job, and that sucks. A lot. Especially since it was my last hope for some sort of permanent employment (i.e. NOT subbing). But regardless, if you say you will do something, DO IT. Don’t leave me hanging. It’s inconsiderate, rude, and makes me not want to work for you (except that I am so completely desperate for employment, I would work for the headmistress in Matilda).

In other news, I went to the Mets game tonight and it was SO GOOD. It’s kind of sad that Shea is closing though. As my friend Liz said, “Yeah it’s a shithole, but it’s MY shithole.”

Confessions of a Shopoholic

I like shopping. A lot.

I am usually able to keep my shopping impulses under control because I have been a college student and had limited funds. Now that I have graduated, and I’m making some money (though not a lot by any means…I still don’t have a real job) I can’t seem to help myself.

With so much free time on my hands, I have been occupying myself by perusing stores across Manhattan and looking for great deals online. I currently have a bid on designer jeans on e-bay. Because I am living at home, and therefore have few expenses, this may not seem like a huge problem, especially since I always look for a good bargain.

However, even bargains add up. And I don’t have real job. And I’m supposed to be saving money to move out from my parents’ apartment.

Make it stop!

Progress!

In an effort to hide from the hurricane-like weather outside, I spent the day inside watching chick flicks. I watched Bridget Jones’ Diary and Dirty Dancing (neither of which I had seen before, though I did read the book Bridget Jones). And yes, they were fun and cheesy and everything you would expect from chick flicks, but the amazing part? I was able to watch and enjoy them and not be a sad, mopey, craptastic mess after! And that is progress, my friends.

We haven’t communicated in over 3 weeks, and while it is one of the hardest things I have had to do, it is also one of the best because now I am beginning to feel like myself again. I no longer feel like I am in a haze, like I will never be happy again, like I am just a body going from place to place but I am not really there. I still get sad, but only if I allow myself to rehash everything in my head, which I don’t have a strong desire to do anymore. So basically, no contact is the most effective way to move on from a breakup because it allows you to really distract yourself and not always think about how much you miss the person. It is terribly painful in the beginning, but it does get better, I promise.

And I have an interview on Monday! *fingers crossed!*

When the Guy Finds Someone New

My computer is back! And working! (Therefore I can upload my Alaska pictures soon!)

These past few days have been really stressful. Mostly brought on by my own psycho ex girlfriend craziness. I decided to look at the facebook of the nice girl who I hate because she flirted with my (ex)boyfriend right in front of me, convinced me that I was crazy for thinking she liked him, and then actively pursued him the second we broke up. I need to come up with a good pseudonym for her…any suggestions? Anyway, I have been avoiding looking at her profile because I knew that I would find things that I didn’t want to see and my will power has been pretty good these past few weeks (although being thousands of miles away and having limited internet access in Alaska certainly helped). Of course, I saw something that made me want to throw up. And I am fairly sure that they are hooking up. Which sucks.

So, being a girl, I have spent the past few days imagining the extent of this “relationship.” I know that I shouldn’t care. It doesn’t change anything. And it’s not like I want to get back together with him, so it shouldn’t matter who he does or doesn’t see. But I think what bothers me is partially that it is HER and I feel betrayed by whatever it is that they have because I saw it beginning before my eyes while we were still together when he was supposed to be earning back my trust.

It also bothers me because it means that we are officially over. Which i have known for over three months. But up until a few weeks ago we have been talking regularly, so it didn’t really feel like we were completely broken up. Now, not only is it excruciating to resist the temptation to pick up the phone and text him (especially since yesterday was his birthday), but I have to deal with the thought of him with this new girl haunting me.

They say breakups are hard for a reason.