First Date!

I went on a date with The Law Student (TLS) tonight, and let’s just say, it was far better than I could have imagined. He was a true gentleman, extremely nice (but still flirtatious), and the conversation flowed very easily. In fact, we only had plans for dinner, but dinner was over before we knew it and we were soon figuring out where to go for dessert. He’s smart, serious, and ambitious, but still knows how to have fun and has a great sense of humor.

Can you tell I like him?

He said he had a good time as well, so hopefully we will see each other again.

I also have plans to go out with Red on Tuesday night, but after meeting TLS I’m not quite as interested. This is why I can’t casually date.

This could get interesting…

TGIF!

This week has been so long! Today was a pretty awesome day though. I got several very generous gifts from parents in my class (so sweet!). I really have the best class ever.

I got to bake sugar cookies! Have I mentioned that I love to bake? They aren’t done yet, but I will let you all know how they turn out! I am most excited to decorate them. I will be experimenting with a royal icing recipe…we’ll see how this turns out!

I have a confesssion. I was talking to a friend a couple days ago and she convinced me to sign up for JDate (essentially match.com for Jews) because a lot of her friends have had success. I am very turned off by internet dating (or at least I thought) because I like the idea of meeting people because our paths crossed at the right time.  This may be a huge waste of $37 (for one month) but today alone I had 7 messages and someone added me to their “Hot List.” This all sounds so lame, I know. But really, my expectations are not high. I just want to gain some dating experience and confidence so that I will feel more comfortable when I start dating for real. Does that make sense?

How do you all feel about internet dating?

Hump Day!

Does anyone else find that this week is moving painfully slowly? At least it’s hump day! Which means, bullet points because I am too exhausted to think clearly.

• Today was so stressful and exhausting, I thought I would collapse halfway through. Luckily, I have the best class EVER and one of the parents came in to teach the kids about Hanukkah traditions and she surprised me and the teacher with coffee! I almost hugged her! She’s so sweet and such a lifesaver.
• I abandoned the idea of going to my school holiday party tonight. First of all, it was $35! Aren’t these things supposed to be free so that you can get wasted on the company’s tab? Oh right, I work at public school and I can’t drink. Plus the bar was very far downtown and lazy. Seeing a bunch of drunk teachers might have been worth it though. At least tomorrow I will get to see a bunch of hungover teachers!
• Instead of boozing it up with a bunch of teachers, I had dinner with one of my best friends from college who I haven’t seen in forever. And she also happens to be a teacher, so it was kind of the same. Sort of. It was so nice to catch up and vent and laugh. I’m really starting to feel like myself again.
• I want to bake some holiday cookies for the family I babysit for. I love to bake but I want to try something new. Any suggestions? I’m open to pretty much anything (but it has to be nut-free! The kid is allergic!).

Just a Few Things

Quick update here.

Tomorrow will be two weeks of NO contact whatsoever. I am very proud of myself for not caving.

Last night, I went out with my cousin and we got hit on by a FELON. Yes, after introducing himself as Jason, the next tidbit that he decided to share with us was that he had just gotten out of jail after FOUR years for robbery. He even showed us his parol ID and explained that he just needed to be “honest” about who he is. Clearly, a real winner. He then proceeded to whisper extremely dirty and disgusting things in my ear before we told him to leave us alone.

I’m getting a haircut in a couple hours and I’m considering getting bangs. Thoughts?

The $64,000 Question: Where to Find a Decent Guy?

I have been discussing this a lot with my girlfriends recently and we have not been able to figure out a solution, so I am posing it to all of you…if anyone even reads this.

The perk of being single is that you can date great hot men, right? Except that I haven’t so much as gone on any dates or even really flirted much since my breakup. So I am just single and lonely and that just sucks. A lot. I have made the executive decision that I need to put myself out there and stop waiting for a great guy to just fall into my lap. So last night some friends and I went to a bar downtown. I wore a cute top, my sexy pumps, had a great hair day, and was feeling hot and ready to get out there!

Except that we only got hit on by really sketchy guys. The kind of sketchy where they don’t even say hello or give you a nice smile, but just point to the chair next to them and expect you to awkwardly join their table. The kind of sketchy where, when you are waiting for your friend outside the dirty bathroom, they say, so can we keep you company while you wait for your friend? As if I have a CHOICE in the matter! And my personal favorite: the guy who hit on me and my friend at the SAME TIME and kept waiting to see which of us would go and which one would stay with him. Except that we both left, because that was SKETCHY.

Overall the night was frustrating and we spent the whole time trying to think of ways out of numerous awkward situations. I realize that it was just one night, one bar, and we were probably trying too hard, but I don’t think that a bar is the way to pick up guys. At least not guys who want more than just sex.

So the $64,000 question is, how does a girl meet a decent, cute guy?

I’m Baaaack!

I returned from Alaska this morning. And our flight left last night. And I don’t sleep well on planes-even in first class.

So I will have to give a more detailed update later, after some much needed sleep. Maybe I will even include some pictures (if the geniuses at the Apple store can figure out how to rescue my hard drive). However, I will say, this vacation was more amazing than I expected. Alaska is a truly amazing place.

And home to our potential future VP? Didn’t see that one coming…

A Girlie Saturday Night

Tonight was one of those nice relaxing nights with some girlfriends where you don’t have to impress anyone and can just completely be yourself. No boyfriends, no bars, no drama. Exactly what I needed.

I met Alex on my corner so that we could head downtown together to meet up with Liz and Talia at the movie theater. On the way we talked about relationships, the future, and friends. I told Alex about my recent realization and how cynical it has made me about men. It was nice to finally confess the thoughts that have been consuming me all week, that have caused me to walk around the city with an intimidating glare (my mom always says that my emotions always show so clearly on my face), stay up crying at night, and get distracted from my camp job for the first time this summer (usually being with little kids takes all of my mental energy so I have nothing left to devote to anything else). It was nice to have someone tell me that they understand, and that I have every right to be angry and feel how I am feeling.

We finally met up with Liz and Talia at the theater, bought our tickets to the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 (no shame here), and walked around to look for a place for dinner. We were in a neighborhood that I don’t know very well, so it was nice to explore a new area of the city, something that doesn’t happen too often since I have lived here my whole life. Finally we settled on a Vietnamese place (YUM) and frozen yogurt for dessert (YUM YUM YUM).

The movie was SO cute (if you like kind-of-cheesy-super-girlie movies). The audience was literally all female who all said “aw” anytime something romantic happened. It was kind of amusing. I needed a happy feel-good movie after all the angry bitterness I have been feeling all week, and this one was pretty fun.

Overall, it was a pretty successful night.

Maybe now I can get out of my funk?

Things Fall Apart

All of a sudden I feel like my life is something of a mess. Again.

For starters, I had another interview yesterday and I’m not at all sure how it went. The interviewer said that they were talking to a lot of people for the position and they would only call back two for a second interview, but that he would be in touch either way. Great. That sounds wonderful. Basically I am competing against a LOT of (probably more qualified) people for a position at a VERY fancy school downtown. It seems like a nice place and I know a lot of people there, but I don’t want to get my hopes up.

The other job has not gotten back to me, so I can imagine what that means. The problem is that my summer job starts next week and I don’t know when I will be able to interview for other positions. And with my current health situation, I really need to have health insurance. So I’m basically in freak-out panic mode. Which makes me cranky. And fight with my whole family for no reason. And then I feel bad and get crankier. It’s really a vicious cycle.

Hopefully I will not be job-less and living in my parent’s apartment until I am 27. Because I would probably lose my mind.

In other news, I drunkenly made out with a stranger this weekend at a bar. Because I’m classy like that. It should be noted that it was my last night of drinking for nine months. Because I’m pregnant. JUST KIDDING. Not funny. My health situation requires me to take medication for nine months which=no alcohol. Good for my wallet, not so much for my social life. Anyway, Friday night I had a sort of last hurrah of partying at my friends’ joint birthday get together. And got plastered. And made out with a sketchy guy who I will never see again. Although we did exchange numbers and he lives in my neighborhood. It was really strange to be with someone else. I haven’t kissed anyone besides the Ex in 2.5 years. I forgot what it was like to be with someone else. It was kind of nice (minus the sketchiness) and I didn’t feel guilty or start bawling in the middle. So I guess this is progress.

Baby steps, right?

A Few Random Thoughts

I have a lot on my mind and a lot going on and not a whole lot of brain energy to organize it all. So here is what is going on in my life, in bullet form:

• I got contacts! After a very long trip to the eye doctor on Friday I officially have contacts (and new fancy glasses). My vision isn’t actually THAT bad, but I have trouble seeing far away, particularly street signs which makes me get lost more often than I should considering I am a native New Yorker and all. I didn’t notice much of a difference in the office because nothing was that far away, but when I went outside, I could suddenly SEE everything clearly. It was like seeing everything for the first time. Granted, I could just wear my glasses outside, but I forget them a lot and they just generally annoy me (even though I am told that I look older and more mature with them). I’m having some trouble getting used to them, but so far, TOTALLY worth it.
• On Friday, my mom convinced me to call the people at the job I want. They had said that they were going to make a decision last week, and here it was Friday and I still hadn’t heard from them. Of course, I took this to mean that I didn’t get the job and so I moped and was just generally upset. My mother, however, managed to convince me that at least if I called them I would have some peace of mind because I would get some information either way. She gets on my nerves a lot, but sometimes that lady knows what she is talking about. I called them and they said that they had DEFINITELY NOT made a decision yet (!!!) and that they would call me on Monday. While it may still turn out that I won’t get the job, at least I know that I have not been completely cut so far and I do stand a chance. Fingers crossed that I get some good news tomorrow!
• Yesterday was my first day of camp orientation (did I mention that I am going to be a camp counselor this summer? Even though I did that all through high school? And haven’t done it in about 3 summers? Yeah, I’m cool). Anyway, I need the money and it seems like it will be fun. It’s at a different camp (a much fancier, more expensive camp=more tips for me?), which is weird because I have been at the same place for so long, and now I am in a completely different environment where they do things completely differently and I don’t know anyone. Um, except that my kindergarten teacher and her daughter work there…random much? I couldn’t believe that she recognized me. It will be an interesting summer to say the least.
• Today is Fathers’ Day and after a lovely breakfast at the sketchy diner that we go to, my dad and sister and I decided to go for a bike ride on the bike paths in Riverside Park. It all started out nice until it decided to POUR and we got completely soaked and water got stuck in my eye, messing up the new contact situation, and we ended up dirty and wet. But we actually had a lot of fun. Of course by the time we got home, the sky was blue and it was sunny, so people were giving us funny looks.
• I haven’t had any contact with the Ex in days. I want to so badly, but he gets upset when I talk to him at this point and I know it just makes it harder for him. It’s actually easier for me to not talk to him either, but let’s face it, I miss him. And the thought of him coming to the city and not calling me like he said he would is killing me. He could be here now for all I know, and I would have no idea. But I am proud of myself for not giving in and staying (fairly) strong. Even if on the inside I am still kind of a mess.

Girl’s Night

I really needed this. Tonight I went out with my friend Audrey. We went to a classic Upper West Side bar which was fun and very desperately needed. I was hoping to maybe flirt with some cute guys (let’s face it, I need some male attention), but she is taken so we just hung out, which was nice as well. I got a tad too drunk, but I’m going through a tough time, so clearly, it’s acceptable. Plus we went during happy hour, so the whole bar was half off (!!!).

We also went to see our friend Emily’s new apartment which was really nice. I’m jealous. I’m craving some independence.

This point didn’t really have a point except to say that I am nicely tipsy and I enjoyed some much needed girl time.

Also, I have gone 2 days without communicating with the Ex at all. It’s rough.